Heechul’s Cyworld Entry 2008.08.08 21:22

Title: Depression

4 years ago ..

(This is) The first picture I posted up when I opened my minihompy..



Opening the drawer, other than red, I have almost every colour of contact lens


Opening the cabinet, it’s filled with plain series, floral clothes, and hats



Thinking of it now, before debut, I seemed more like an artiste..(-┏)


No matter who’s staring at me, I will carry the thought that ‘I am air’ and only caring about walking


Even if I hear “So handsome”, “So pretty” I do not feel anything

I just have the ‘Now then you know?’ type of thought which is far from a good feeling ..(-┏)


Letting me face women, the 3 dongsaengs who are willing to dump their pride for the sake of true love


Jung Yunho (Absolute and complete AAA type)

Lee Donghae (An A type who’s just like a B type)

Kim Kibum (I don’t know if he’s talented fella who’ll become an A type just like Yunho)


When these 3 get together they’ll always go into comparisons of relationships ..

“No matter how much we like (her) we’ll break up, but until the end, our pride will still be left with us”


Even elementary school kids will jeer at the story ‘Women are Men’s enemies’ ..

This is the rough plot of Heenim’s ‘Women are Men’s enemies’..


Why is it that men always have to pay for the meal?

When you all cry and get yourselves entangled, do you feel that being a woman is very great?

I just walked simply, the women in front cast a glance and had the intentions to run away


Women look at men “Wa~ Your stature is so good! Can I touch? >>Ya~” Like this


But if men say “Your figure’s not too bad either^-^” It’ll become a @#$%&! outcome which will upset people..

And there’s also other weird behaviour that was forced ..


What’s funny is that.. These 3 pure dongsaengs who are not able to readily nod their head saying these kind of words


In the end, the 3 of the dongsaengs still don’t believe women..(-┏)


Although it’s very normal that Cassiopeia and ELF will clap, and wave the Taeguk balloon

But in my opinion.. ‘What if the kids don’t get married;;” Thinking about this, I’ll feel that I’ve sinned


When I met and contacted my high school friends

“Do you have a girfriend?ㅋㅋ It looks like you won’t be getting marriedㅋㅋ”

“You still have no way of initiating a call to a girl?ㅋㅋ”

“You play games>girlfriend That’s the problemㅋㅋ”


With regards to the words filled with warmth said by friends, I acknowledged it using violence

When depression sinks in, even if I force it I’ll also pretend that I’m happy


Or I’ll act depressed to the highest level, finding a way out of the darkness


It’s roughly this meaning.. I’m still more of the latter


I’ve reached the age at a certain degree..

It’s time.. I should learn the analogies of this degree..

The depression of August can’t be like a child’s thought disappearing that quickly


I’ll use my camera to capture my depressed image and upload it..

Truthfully, updating my minihompy with this kind of font and colour..

It doesn’t look like I’m depressed (-┏)


Translated by superduperlove
Credits; OnlySJ13, LoveChul


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Oppa,is there something wrong?
I really don't like emotinal oppas..
wishing that oppas won't be sad..

Heechul oppa! Are you alright? Don't be depressed...
Its going to be alright! It will be!
Don't you worry oppa, you'll find the one who is right for you, really! And then, you'll be able to tell those people who always thought you would not be able to get married: "Ha, you can eat your words right back in!".

Don't be sad... Cheer up... You elfs will be with you no matter what! =) Smile please!!!

Don't be depressed oppa! No but the girl for you will come along soon.but for now you have us!

WAAAHHH oppa are you trying to say that you wanna get married!?
hehehe just kidding~ well, kwaenchana oppa... we don't mind now if you get a yojachingoo or not... as long as that girl is right for you or honest with her/for your feelings~ and don't be sad oppa... when the right time comes... u'll know that we're not stopping you... E.L.F's are just here for OPPAS~ but when it comes to serious relationship... E.L.F is still here to support you~ so no worries~ oppas are person also... we understand...^^

ooohhh but when u have mentioned above DONGHAE oppa.. i feel a little bit hurt... T__T

well, hwaiting~

btw, heechul oppa... looks really cute in that pic.. wearing BLUE contact lens..

nice pict oppa..
haha u have almost all colour of contact lens?
cool^^
does somthing wrong oppa?
u kinda weird..
r oppa need girlfriend?
well,, if oppa need it,, i hope oppa will find it soon..
hwaiting oppa

Oh btw oppa!
I like your blue eyes!!
pretty!

heechul.. =/
must be difficult to your emotional side to confront this =/
be famous have your good sides and the bad sides. this is one of it.
**chulla, não fique triste! sei bem como se sente, eu te entendo, pode desabafar. não tenha medo do que te chamem, se for um emochul ou qualquer coisa. você é um ser humano como todos os outros...**
c'mon, heechul, let's put a smile on your face! we don't like to see you sad, not just because you're famous and sing/dance in a band we all love, but because it's you, you, you!

haaah heechul oppa~~
what's this about being depressed and all
and about wanting a girl??
waaa what's wrong oppa??
hope you can solve all your problems and won't be lonely again~~
and i didn't know younho oppa, hae oppa, & kibum oppa looking for a girl based on blood type....
i hope yesung wants type A

Saranghae oppa!!

Heechul oppa all i want for is to be happy in everything that u chooses to..I think it is normal to find someone whom u will love forever, dont be depressed yOu will find the right wOman for you ^_^...And if ever u find the woman, ELF will always be here and support you

Be happy Heechul oppa ELF loves you! :loveNkiss: